And that was last month....

So on to what's new...
Not to much. Was going to Quit my job, sell my place, move to kamloops, and go to school for a heavy duty mechanics preapprenticeship program.
told a lot of people that's the plan. And then... decided not to.
I like my job. I live a six year old's dream. Do a lot of work that a six year old never thought of but hey. Learned quickly that not everyone can do my job. Just the physical part even. We were putting up a crane and one of the guys I work with tried to pull up a 60 lbs. hydrolic pump on 3/8" line. which I usually do. He managed to pull it up 39' , then as he kneeled down to grab the handle the rope slid through his hands for aprroximatly 50'. Bouncing off of the crane mast on the way down. We got a rental to finish the job. The boss told him to go to the gym. A week later the repair bill was on the lunchroom desk overtop of a gym advertisment. We laughed. And I probably will have a tower crane operators licence. They don't dont exsist yet in B.C. so when it comes into affect I will get "grandfatherd" in, as I am operating the rt mobile crane in the yard. This according to the PCL safety guy, who also happens to be on the recommendation board. Life is ok.

Yeah....

that was last week.
Wednessday After work went to a doctor cause my eyes were bugging me. An infection with my eyelids. yeah ok. Worse case - It spreds into my nose ears etc. Doc turns around and says "brain. It's right behind the eyes."
Cool he one uped my worst case. O.K. Guess I better do something about that. And the wife and Kid gave me a cold. Go to pick up my 3 antibiotics, only have 2. Get nosebleed talking to pharasist.Yes! loven' it. Thursday get upget ready for work. UUGG! not good! bad! sick stay home. I'll kill it today be fine tomarrow. not so much friday feel losey. go to work. judging from other peoples reaction ( What the f*** do you have? and Get the F*** away from me) maybe I shouldn't be here, return home. die.continue all weekend. not good. Monday feel good tonight Yes.Better now.

Yep Stayn' alive.

Still suckin' air.
Life is good. Can't seem to spend time with my friends anymore. That sucks, but the OT is pretty good. Should start catching up on some of my bills. Family is good, wife is catching the kids cold. so I should be fighting it off as we speak. We will see. everbody else has caught someting. The kid can climb a little now, which I think is cool. He climbed a empty upright water bottle onto the freezer, just so he could reach the fruit bars sitting on the pantry. I had to give it to him, It was cool to see him figure it out, and do it. Now on wow I finally have a lvl60 warlock, of corse untill I get the expansion it won't let me get any more exp. so now my turen warrior herbalist is now lvl 22. now my kid is helping me type soI'm gonna go.

Only three weeks

This time... sorta
Was going to complain about how often people update, then looked at who was last. Sooo on to a new topic.
Snow. Gotta love or hate it. I love it. Sure sometimes when your not on your guard, it slaps you. But, most of the time you don't need to wear rain gear. Cause it's not rain. This is good, cause I'm starting to dislike rain.
oh dang gotta go to work. Everybody is healthy and happy as far as I know,Cameron has a cold but hopefully that will be gone soon. Later

Wow

Ok
It shall be noted that I was having a bad day when I wrote last. I have been feeling better, much better. Life is mostly good :). I have been judging myself by what I accomplish and this makes me happy. Also have been in the yard alot less witch makes me happy. Yard is slow. Sloow Bad. tigger no happy when slow. Brain activity also go down.Getting to gaming has been difficult the last mounth. hopefully I can make it tomarrow. That comic that Brad sent me to. I love that. "Pony? I don't want a pony!" War dog their more wolf than dog. "Unleash the rage" next panel on a dashhond. Poetry. I was a better host last weekend, this is good. X-mas is a short 4 days away, ya family.Will of corse think of my friends over the holidays, at least twice. ;) love ya all and if I don't manage to see ya, Merry Christmas!!!

Who am I?

How do I identify myself?
Why do I only blog when I have an issue that I need to sort out? All good questions. Wish I had an answer. Is there time for me to be happy? Is it even relative?

Well I've tried to identify myself by how happy I am, and got deprressed. So that didn't work, next I will try by what I accomplish. I might keep you posted.
I blog to sort out my mind.
I'm not sure being happy is important. I think that not being unhappy is important and that being content with a job well done is important, joy is just a bonus? I think that lately that I want the world on a silver platter. Me ME ME ME. Selfish I know, I am a father and a husband. My job is to provide for my family first and make them happy second,me third. But do I confuse their wants with their needs? and my needs with my wants?

What makes me happy? Sex and some form of combat. Who is surprised? anyone? Anyone at all? Someone in the back perhaps? I thoght not. Evan a spirited conversation is a form of combat. My anger lurks within. I try to keep it controlled rage but sometimes it rend leaks out. oh well destroy I will keep it contained. I do try to be happy. but sometimes feel streched thin. Although, I notice that when I have keep busy I dosen't bug volkswagon me at all. Since I have lost my mind It's in the kitchen! I'm gonna go. ;)

yes I'm still alive.

Surprising I know.
First to appoligise to my friends. I was a poor host last night. soory. did you guys all see the pictures that i sent you? The crane that fell over? the only guy to die was a lawyer from Microsoft. The operator rode it down 210'. Escaped with only minor injuries. Had a full horse up his ass. the crane ofcorse is a write off. oh well, to luck, may the bitch be our bitch.